Friday, January 18, 2013

Suddenly

Eye casualty waiting room. Apparently I have retinal displacement and need surgery. It can be genetic - a weakness of tissue on the back of the eye that tears away. It is common among bungee jumpers, of which I am not one. It needs to be reattached. Waiti
Knitting in the waiting room

It's in both eyes. Surgery possibly this afternoon. :(

In one moment your life can change dramatically. One unexpected moment. And as you will be reminded it could always have been worse, and it will get better. Statements which both comfort and frustrate. Though I am grateful. There is still the shock of it, the why me moments, the acceptance of it, the plan of treatment. The questions, concerns, hypotheticals. Quite simply, the retina has detached in both my eyes and they require surgery within a month of each other. (Those readers who are less squeamish may be inclined to watch this You tube clip of a Scleral Buckle.)

I noticed on the weekend that when I closed my right eye the vision in my left eye was blurry. I'd had floaters for quite some time, but this was not uncommon for me and I always mentioned it at my yearly optometrist appointments. Monday morning I rang the optometrist and couldn't get an appointment until Thursday afternoon. At my appointment I was diagnosed immediately with retinal displacement of my left eye. Within minutes the optometrist was on the phone to the hospital, inquiring whether they could operate on me that night. It was frighteningly sudden. In the end, I was expected at the hospital first thing this morning, with the possibility of surgery today.

I spent much of today in the waiting room at eye casualty, my sister beside me. Six pairs of eyes peered in to mine and it was confirmed that both eyes were affected and required surgery. The right being less damaged needed repairing first to ensure it torn no further. The left, the damage being done, will be improved by surgery, but will never be the same again, I will have permanent vision loss. The first surgery is now booked for Monday morning.

From Monday I will be stepping away from the blog for an undetermined length of time. (I have portraits to post on Sunday.) My vision is not expected to return to normal for up to six weeks. (No knitting!?!) So dear readers let me ask of you, if you have floaters in your eyes, or flashes of light (whether your eyes are open or closed), or see grey curtains across your vision please see an optometrist and mention them when you book your appointment. I will check in when I can to update you, here or via Facebook and Instagram.

48 comments:

  1. Oh Christina I'm so sorry to hear about that this has happened. May the surgery go well and I hope that you recover quickly. I will miss your lovely posts but will be thinking positive thoughts. Take care. xxx

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  2. Woah. What a shock for you. But look after yourself first. Hope all goes smoothly! xo

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  3. I'm sorry! I hope the surgery goes well and your eyes heal up nice and quickly. Take care, xx

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  4. Will be thinking of you this week Christina and hoping that all goes well with the surgery. It is not easy when you get ill or need surgery with a young family. Try to take things easy, and hopefully you will be knitting and reading again in no time. Sending hugs xo

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  5. Good luck Christina, hope you have a quick and uncomplicated recovery, and that your vision is not effected too badly, you'll be back knitting before you know it! Julie x

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  6. Please take care, and best of luck with the surgery. I'll be sending good vibes your way. xxx

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  7. Oh my gosh ... can't believe it... you poor thing! ((big hug)) I really hope all goes well with your surgery and that you make a very speedy recovery so you can get back into your knitting! :) XXX

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  8. So sorry to hear this. I hope everything goes well and that you recover quickly!

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  9. Sorry to hear your news Christina. Wishing you well with the surgery and recovery.
    Tracy

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  10. How sudden and scary for you. I have floaters but dont notice them all that much unless there is lots of natural light around. I hope that you recover quickly from the surgeries and that everything goes well for you. xoxoxo

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  11. oh sweet girl, take care. i'm glad your sister is there holding your hand. Aren't we so lucky to have fast access to surgery when we need it (even when it's super scary)? Take care, will be thinking of you :)sarah

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  12. Oh Christina! Will be thinking of you ~ do take care xo

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  13. Yikes, not good. Take care of yourself x

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  14. Thinking of you Christina. All the best for the surgery and for a speedy recovery x

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  15. best wishes and a safe and visable return to health xox

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  16. Christina this must be a pretty frightening time, that's a lot to absorb all of a sudden. I'm thinking of you and wish you well, take care lady..x

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  17. Will be thinking of you, and your poor eyes! Take care and all the best ... J

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  18. I wish you a speedy and full recovery Christina. What a frightening time for you. x

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  19. Good luck with your surgeries!
    If you have any questions about what will happen, just send them my way...I am a theatre nurse and have done a fair bit of work for various eye surgeons.

    I will be thinking of you!

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  20. Best wishes, hope you have a speedy recovery. I will miss reading your blog .

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  21. I read this post with baited breath after the first line. Hugs to you and hope you recover swiftly. Xo

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  22. I will be thinking of you too. Hoping all goes well. x

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  23. Thinking of you. Sending love for a speedy and full recovery. xxxx

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  24. Oh Christina, that must've been so scary for you. I hope that all goes well with your surgeries and you have a speedy recovery. It never ceases to amaze me how life can change in just one instant. Will be thinking of you and your family! XOXO

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  25. all will flow smoothly well! i'll think positively of you. please let my greetings, my hugs, my love accompany you for a speedy full recovery!(✿◠‿◠) gina! http://zazaseacow.wordpress.com/

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  26. Christina, hope you make a fast recovery and please know that we are all thinking of you and wishing you well as you have your surgeries.

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  27. Oh my goodness, what a scary experience! I will keep you in my thoughts. Good luck with the surgeries and I hope your recovery is speedy... x

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  28. You are in my prayers my dear. So glad they found them and that you are scheduled to have them fixed. Take care and we will be here when you get back.

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  29. If healing thoughts will speed your recovery you'll be better in no time, we're all thinking about you out here!

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  30. Oh, what a frightening experience indeed! Best wishes for your surgery and a speedy recovery! Take care. x

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  31. I think you're completely right being shocked by this news - it's out of nowhere. There's plenty of time later to be grateful; you're a grateful-type person, so that vibe will return. It's important to have the freak-out and then you can focus on putting energy into healing. Someone said that to me in December when I was in bed with chronic sciatic pain - "Your energy really needs to just be going into your healing". That made me relax more and see that I wasn't required to 'do' anything, or show people some signs of improvement when I clearly wasn't better yet.

    I really hope that you are able to rest well following the ops. Remember - some of the greatest ideas of all time have happened during convalescence.

    Carmen x

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    1. Great advice Carmen. I think the realization that you don't have to "do" anything while you are recovering is an important one. I think Christina is worried about what needs to be done and what she won't be able to do. But, there will be family and friends to cook, clean, care for the children and so on, Christina's job will be focusing on herself, being positive, and getting better.

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  32. Christina, I heard the news on FB! such a shock. I wish I could offer some practical help... Be kind to yourself and accept all offers of help so you can concentrate on recovery.
    Jodie
    Ricrac

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  33. What a shock, take care of yourself, I'm sure all will be ok and you will be back to your normal routine soon. xxBrenda

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  34. Oh Christina I am so sorry to hear that. I hope the surgery goes well and your recovery is speedy. Take care of yourself and we will have you in our thoughts. Kat xo

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  35. Wow, what a shock. Sometimes life really throws us a curve ball. Best of luck with your surgery and recovery.

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  36. Christina, wishing you a speedy and full recovery. Last year I had cataracts removed from both eyes so have some understanding of your situation. Eye surgery is truly remarkable today. Wishing you a successful result.

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  37. Christina, wishing you a speedy and full recovery. Last year I had cataracts removed from both eyes so have some understanding of your situation. Eye surgery is truly remarkable today. Wishing you a successful result.

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  38. Oh no! Ouch. Poor you, I wish you speedy recovery & good health from then on.
    Hugs to you.
    And... you can knit without looking, just knit garter stitch & make a scarf!

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  39. I can post an update on the blog for you while you are recovering if you like? I know this is a crappy thing, but I keep looking at all the positives. You have wonderful friends and family to support you, baby sit for you, cook, and clean, and drive you places. You have two beautiful children, and a supportive husband who will keep you company while you get better. And you won't be able to knit, but imagine how many audio books you will be able to get through! I love you. I will help where ever I can. And as awful as all of this is, there are going to be so many great people around to help you get through it. OXOXOXO

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  40. oh no beautiful lady, i am so sorry to be reading this. my thoughts and best wishes for safe and speedy surgeries and recoveries are with you and your family. i wish i could help with the practical stuff fiona has mentioned above, if there is anything that can be done from interstate to help my hand is up. take care. be kind and gentle to yourself. i have no doubt you are in good hands with lots of love surrounding you. a big hug from me xx evie

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  41. Best wishes it all goes well, Christina. I'll be thinking of you on Monday. Nic x

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  42. Good Luck and best wishes Christina. What an awful thing to happen at such a young age. The same thing happened just before Christmas to my Uncle and he was also rushed into hospital the very same day. He was lucky and it was caught in time, but the recovery was slow, with my cousins being adults he was able to take it very easy as keeping relatively still is essential - so you must make sure that with young kids you have other take care of them, I'm sure it will be hard, I know I would find it almost impossible not to join in - My thoughts are with you
    xx

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  43. I will be thinking of you tomorrow, Christina, and wishing you all the best for your recovery xoxo

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  44. Wishing you a speedy recovery. The same thing happened to a friend late lat year which had me rushing off to the optometrist to get a well overdue check up. Eyes are so important !

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  45. So scary, Christina. Wishing you the very best outcome and recovery. Will be thinking of you.
    Xx

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  46. I enjoy reading your blog very much - such a quiet, gentle place - and wish you all the very best for the coming weeks.

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  47. Wishing you a speedy recovery...you and your family are in my prayers xx

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